Quilt of Holes

As I faced my Maker at the last judgment, I knelt before the Lord along with all the other souls.

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Before each of us lay our lives like the squares of a quilt in many piles; an angel sat before each of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry that is our life.

But as my angel took each piece of cloth off the pile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes. Each square was labeled with a part of my life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptations I was faced with in every day life. I saw hardships that I endured, which were the largest holes of all.

I glanced around me. Nobody else had such squares. Other than a tiny hole here and there, the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the bright hues of worldly  fortune. I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened.

My angel was sewing the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbare and empty, like binding air.

Finally the time came when each life was to be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth.. The others rose, each in turn holding up their tapestries. So filled their lives had been. My angel looked upon me,and nodded for me to rise.

My gaze dropped to the ground in shame. I hadn’t had all the earthly fortunes. I had love in my life, and laughter. But there had also been trials of illness, and wealth, and false accusations that took from me my world, as I knew it. I had to start over many times. I often struggled with the temptation to quit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and begin again. I spent many nights on my knees in prayer, asking for help and guidance in my life. I had often been held up to ridicule, which I endured painfully, each time  offering it up to the Father in hopes that I would not melt within my skin beneath the judgmental gaze of those who unfairly judged me.

And now, I had to face the truth. My life was what it was, and I had to accept it for what it was.

I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to the light.  An awe-filled gasp filled the air. I gazed around at the others who stared at me with wide eyes.

Then, I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded the many holes, creating an image, the face of Christ. Then our Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in His eyes. He said, ‘Every time you gave over your life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, and My struggles.

Each point of light in your life is when you stepped aside and let Me shine through, until there was more of Me than there was of you.

May all our quilts be threadbare and worn, allowing Christ to shine through!

God determines who  walks into our life …it’s up to you to decide whom you let walk away, whom you let stay, and whom you refuse to let go.

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    Flashback Tuesday: TT Pinkie Promise from BOMquilts.com

    This quilt was designed using Quilt Pink II fabric from Moda in 2007.  This fabric line no longer available but there are many pink fabrics available now that can be used.  My motivation behind the quilt design was to honor my my mother-in-law, who is a breast cancer survivor.  “TT Pinkie Promise” is a beginner-friendly baby quilt pattern to honor your pinkie promise to those known and unknown women who have fought the breast cancer fight.

    PinkiePromise

    “TT Pinkie Promise” designed by TK Harrison for BOMquilts.com


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      JOY

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      What is YOUR word for 2015?

       


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        Four Year Anniversary of Living with Multiple Sclerosis

        Today marks the four year anniversary of my MS diagnosis.  You can read about my previous yearly updates herehere, and here.

        It was recently pointed out to me that whenever I wrote something about my MS, the news was always worse than the previous note.  And the previous note was worse than the note before that one.

        At this point, I am inclined not to say anything because I *do* realize people turn a deaf ear (or blind eye) to news that is always bad.  Frankly, I have nothing good to say about my MS, either.

        This will be my last MS anniversary post and my last post regarding living my life with MS.

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